Pushed and Pulled

I love being pushed to my limits by God. When He stretches me to lengths I didn't know were possible something inside of me just feels so satisfied, no matter what is actually happening around me. I'm learning what it means to simply abide in God. When everything else is so frustrating or so confusing He is so at peace. Which means I am at peace when I am abiding in Him. There's a deepness to just "being" with God that I'm just seeing now. When everything else seems shallow or pointless, He is deep and meaningful. I am so undeserving of Him. I can't help but smile and be amazed at the thought of who He is and what He has done. It brings such a somberness at the same time. That's the fullness of God though right? He's not either...He's both tears and smiles. On to work for the day.