My Thoughts for the Night

Tonight was a good night. Most of the DTS leaves tomorrow for outreach so we had a commissioning dinner for them. A Brazilian soup and yummy sweet and sour chicken were on the menu. After the long time of setting up, serving, and then cleaning up the dinner 2 of my friends and I went to applebees to just get away for a little bit. We definitely enjoyed our boneless buffalo wings, it's a rare occasion to enjoy such a delicacy here.haha After a mini girls night we went and hung out with a couple of our friends and now I am just relaxing before I go to bed. It's amazing how much I need to wind down after every day, no matter how late it is.

My most recent thoughts have been about relationship. My friends mean the world to me but what am I willing to do for them? What does it mean to really be a good friend? I suppose I've been there for my friends when they need the most and I would jump on a plane in a second if they needed me now, but what about the small things? The small things count the most, at least that's what I've been told, and I rarely do those small things. A little text here and there yeah, but do I keep them updated on my life and where my heart is. Not like I would if I was there with them. I need quality time and I'm realizing it is so selfish of me to define friendship by quality time because I don't have that time to spend with people anymore. True friendship is much deeper than the times we are physically in the same place sharing our hearts. True friendship can surpass the boundaries. I have those friendships because I have amazing friends. No matter what the distance my friends are constantly there for me. I appreciate them more than I could every explain. I am so blessed. And that's just with my friends. I am also blessed with the greatest family. We all have our quirks but I love us so much. They are a treasure that I don't deserve in the least. I'm really mushy right now, I'm not sure why, but I just wanted to share my thoughts.

I've also been seeking after God. That sounds so obvious because of what I've chosen to do with my life right now but I'm finding the real meaning of that. I am determined to understand what it means to seek after God. Seeking is not just a desire, seeking is putting action to the longing in my heart to know God deeper. But what does the action of seeking God look like? What is strategic in seeking God? What part of Him does He want me to seek after right now? I think I am to seek after His character at the moment. Take initiative to study and live through His heart and get some understanding of His love. I really want to take time out of life to study. To dedicate a certain amount of time to really find what it means for us to live like Christ, to understand the Kingdom more clearly. I love learning and I want to be knowledgable about my King.
Well, I am exhausted now. It is entirely too late.
Good night everyone.
In Love,
Tasha