Being home now is really opening my eyes to see that I have no idea what to do with my life and to be honest, it's pushing me farther away from choosing one thing to do with my life. I guess what I'm saying is, I'm still torn. Every time I think I know what I want from life, the next day I'm a complete mess because everything's a blur. The past 2 weeks have been filled with blurry days and all I can get out of it is that I'm not doing what I need to be doing. (What do I need to be doing though?)
Torn between ministry and "real life" (as I've found many non-missionaries like to reference it) is my state of being right now. Decisions are what I'm living for and they're rapidly closing in on me. Times like this I realize I cannot do life alone, I need people and I need guidance. Even more so, I need a little hope.
*Edit- After posting this I read the title of my blog. If would just stop trying to figure this out on my own and truly embrace what's in front of me, I would get right where I'm going. Maybe a little trust would spark the glimmer of hope I'm looking for.
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