A Restoration of Hope

I love and hate how God just lets me go on my long tantrums over the future and what He wants for me.  He lets me make the decision to trust Him and choose HIM rather than my own desires...or even the desires of the ones I love.  My life is in HIS hands.  Today I was reminded of the calling He placed on my life.  I'm a missionary. Plain and simple. haha  For most of you who know me well, you probably think I'm crazy for even forgetting that but I let myself go.  I let being comfortable take over who I really am.  Even though being comfortable is the most uncomfortable feeling for me I felt like it was my responsibility to live a comfortable life for everyone around me...that way they're comfortable...um, when have I ever been about complacency?!  I'm over it now though and I see myself coming back, the gray fog of confusion and the false desire for a "normal" life is lifting and I am seeing what I really want.  Now what?  Trust.  That's all I need to do right now.  I've fought hard and long to get to this point and now God is saying to just trust.  "Rest in the faith I have given you," oh how I've longed to hear those words from Abba for a long, long time.  I trust my God and I am at peace to let Him be my light, let Him be my guide.  He is my everything and I am so glad to be back in this place of worship and adoration.

The book of Luke is what pushed me out of my slump today.  I am called to be a disciple of my King and adore how He waits for me, so He can run down the road with open arms.  I adore my Father, my King, my Love.

While I sat in the back room and prayed for the people coming in to receive clothes at God's Closet God spoke to me so sweetly.  He wanted to bring a restoration of hope to each person brought into that place today.  I should have seen it coming but He was talking to me.  He was restoring my hope, my faith, as He poured words of intercession into my heart.  That is my prayer for so many right now, there is a lack of hope in many people right now and I fully believe God wants to restore that to its fullest.

I feel like this post is all over the place but I'm so overwhelmed with excitement and relief that I don't know I could put it all in a neat little paragraph.