I Do Believe...I do, I do!

The Davis family needs our prayers! They have run into complications with their current pregnancy and are asking everyone to join them in fighting for the life of their baby, Eisley Antalya.

While praying for the Davis family God gave me a picture of their sweet Eisley losing her light, like Tink in Peter Pan.  Peter is in despair as his best friend is losing her light but then he realizes he can make a difference, he can save her life!   With hope and determination he got every child-like heart in the world to believe and bring her light back.  Well that is what we must do for Eisley Antalya!  Lets trust in our Father and His healing power to touch Eisley as she is still in the womb.  If you don't know the Davis' story already please visit their blog http://colourherhope.com/ and get to know them.  This little girl is going to impact the world, we just need to fight for her right now while she can't fight for herself!  If you get any words of encouragement or blessing I know they would love to hear what you have to share.  

...Then Whom Shall We Fear?

My greatest fear is to live in fear.  In fact, I'm determined to find what it means to live without it and help others find what it means for them.  Freedom is something we can't breathe without and have been given as a gift.  The first step in living without fear is knowing who you are.  Your identity in Christ is the strength of who He is taking over the weakness of who you are.  If we just understood the greatness of who He is we would understand the fact that there isn't possibly anything to fear.

Dance With Me

This song is so beautifully simple and speaks more of my relationship with the Lord right now than any words I could write on my own.  I just wanted to share this with you guys.  The video is a live version of the song I found on youtube (sorry the video screen is cut off a bit) and the lyrics are below.

VERSE 1:
Behold You have come over the hills upon the mountain
To me, You will run, my beloved, you've captured my heart

CHORUS 1:
Won't You dance with me, Oh
Lover of my soul,
to the song of all songs?

VERSE 2:
With You, I will go You are my Love You are my Fair One
The winter has passed and the springtime has come
(repeat)

CHORUS 2:
Won't You dance with me, Oh
Lover of my soul,
to the song of all songs?
Romance me, Oh
Lover of my soul
to the song of all songs

A Change of Seasons

For so long I have been pierced by the cold of Winter. These dry spears of ice, which once shot pain through my body, have become numb and I can only dream of feeling once again...pain is better than the nothingness which has suffocated the life inside of me.  To feel again, would be to live again.  Oh but to cling to the heart of my Savior, the only warmth in sight.  My cry is to feel Him and to know Him, to live in the Spring which bursts through His nature and character keeps me moving and keeps the ember of hope lit deep inside.  My eyes have not left His, I would lose everything with one glance in the other direction. There is no despair even through pain when our eyes are fixed on each other.  Every night I cry for wild flowers, to embrace the effects of sunshine and rain.  Day in and day out all my senses are unsatisfied with this desert of ice, the only water I have felt is in my dreams and even those are fading.  All I can do now is wait, and hold on to hope.  Hope in a Savior whom I love. Hope in the One who keeps my heart beating.  Hope that restoration is at the end of this wintery path.

I rub my hazy eyes, they are blurry from fighting the wind and untrustworthy from each illusion they gave into.  But tears burn as I witness the first sign of Spring, the sun peeking through the clouds.  My cracked lips and parched throat can only utter one phrase as He breathes a painful breath into my lungs, "Thank you."  

For quite some time I had been through a hard and dry winter season in my life and now I see signs of spring and life all around me.  I am so blessed to have a faithful King and beautiful friendships that I am constantly growing from.  Today I can only be grateful and look back on everything He has taught me in the last few years, I am ready to run through the fields of wildflowers and help others embrace the season they are in just as some dear friends did for me.  Embrace life and don't let it pass you by, even the hard parts...they teach you how to love, persevere, and cherish.

Embrace Today!

There is a lot of buzz about weddings and relationships, finding that right person.  I'm not sure why this summer has been so full of marriage and engagements, maybe I'm just at that age.  But I do know it puts all these horrible thoughts in a girls head, like; "something's wrong with me that I haven't found someone yet" or "I need to be a better person, artist, musician, cook, baker, etc. so I can have my own 'prince."  Now, I realize I'm putting myself on the line here and letting everyone in the world know that I'm just a silly girl but these are legit thoughts that go through almost every girl's mind when all of her friends are getting married.  I found that I have to stop myself and look at the whole picture...the picture that says I'M ONLY 22! I have so much life ahead of me yet and if that prince comes then he comes, until then God is calling me to be solely His.  I long to be a better bride for my King and my King alone.  God has spoken so strongly through Mother Teresa and her writings the last while and this is no exception.  Mother Teresa lived her life solely for the Lord and was so confident in that, what a beautiful life she lived with God!

The phrase, "to embrace life" gives me a beautiful picture of wrapping my arms around everything rich and beautiful and soaking in every bit of what it has to offer and letting it take every bit of me I have to offer.  I want to give everything I can to serve God and to live this life to the fullest.  A good friend of mine reminded me that not all prophecies "just happen" we have to do our part to make them happen!  We have to embrace what God has given us to fulfill the things He has spoken into our lives.  Well, I think it's time to focus on the things God has asked me to do and spoken to me so I can be the bride and daughter He has called me to be.

His Will Not Mine

"Am I willing to give up everything?" "What if everything means my dreams and traveling the world?"  "Are all of my passions to stop human trafficking and hold babies in India my own?"  "Where do my desires stop and His desires begin?"  
Lately thoughts like these have been consistently running through my mind.  A fear of living for myself took over the confidence of who I am in Christ, who He spoke me to be.  Each desire and passion He placed so confidently inside of me has been questioned and pulled apart.  Is that a bad thing?  I don't think so.  Even through my moments of insecurity and confusion God gives me much strength and I have no doubt that those passions are straight from His heart.  So why am I here?  What am I doing in the middle of Amish country?!(haha this questions comes up all too often)  I have devoted my life to follow after His heart, I am dedicated to glorifying Him and if this is where He is glorified most right now then I am completely satisfied to be here. But I never want to lose sight of who I really am, a strong-willed, creative, justice focused woman with a compassion for the world.  I pray that who God has made me to be will only grow stronger while I am in this safe place.


Father, keep my heart from growing weak.  Keep my eyes fixed on You.  Keep my mind sharp and my ears sensitive to your voice.  Let me not miss one step You ask me to take or one hand you ask me to hold.  Even though I do not understand how, be glorified in me!  Make Your name known and spread Your love through one so undeserving yet so willing.  I am Yours so do Your will with me.

"God plants His saints in the most useless places. We say - God intends me to be here because I am so useful. Jesus never estimated His life along the line of the greatest use. God puts His saints where they will glorify Him, and we are no judges at all of where that is."
-Oswald Chambers 

Never Lose

Blind Faith

Sometimes I catch myself trying to cheat in life.  Maybe cheat isn't the best word, "sneak peek" might describe it better.  I'll pray that God open doors and guide me to the next destination on our path.  So He does, He leads me right to the door which is standing wide open.  But what's on the other side of the door? 5 inches.  That's it.  There is nothing but 5 inches standing in front of me.  Where will 5 inches take me?  What could actually happen within 5 inches?  So I stand there.  Waiting.  Watching the path, wondering when it will grow and if 5 inches could possibly be worth taking.  I spend most of my time straining my eyes to see what's past the 5 inches.  It is quite clear that I am incapable of seeing past what's in front of me but I try and try.  With futile attempts at catching a glimpse of where this path leads I finally decide the 5 inches may be worth my time.  One step is all I can take with what space I have.  But what I see within that step is worth a thousands steps at one time.  What's truly on the other side of the door is another door.  But that is all I need to know, the path is still there and God has more ahead.
I'm finding that following God's path in blind faith generally means taking one step at a time.  Those rare moments of taking leaps are beautiful and to be cherished but squeeze every bit out of those small steps that you can.  God has a brilliant plan for each of us and to hesitate (especially doubting the worth of the step) would be to deny the blessing He has for you and those around you.