A Change of Seasons

For so long I have been pierced by the cold of Winter. These dry spears of ice, which once shot pain through my body, have become numb and I can only dream of feeling once again...pain is better than the nothingness which has suffocated the life inside of me.  To feel again, would be to live again.  Oh but to cling to the heart of my Savior, the only warmth in sight.  My cry is to feel Him and to know Him, to live in the Spring which bursts through His nature and character keeps me moving and keeps the ember of hope lit deep inside.  My eyes have not left His, I would lose everything with one glance in the other direction. There is no despair even through pain when our eyes are fixed on each other.  Every night I cry for wild flowers, to embrace the effects of sunshine and rain.  Day in and day out all my senses are unsatisfied with this desert of ice, the only water I have felt is in my dreams and even those are fading.  All I can do now is wait, and hold on to hope.  Hope in a Savior whom I love. Hope in the One who keeps my heart beating.  Hope that restoration is at the end of this wintery path.

I rub my hazy eyes, they are blurry from fighting the wind and untrustworthy from each illusion they gave into.  But tears burn as I witness the first sign of Spring, the sun peeking through the clouds.  My cracked lips and parched throat can only utter one phrase as He breathes a painful breath into my lungs, "Thank you."  

For quite some time I had been through a hard and dry winter season in my life and now I see signs of spring and life all around me.  I am so blessed to have a faithful King and beautiful friendships that I am constantly growing from.  Today I can only be grateful and look back on everything He has taught me in the last few years, I am ready to run through the fields of wildflowers and help others embrace the season they are in just as some dear friends did for me.  Embrace life and don't let it pass you by, even the hard parts...they teach you how to love, persevere, and cherish.